Big Flat Bread

it's Friday! thank God, but i still can't rest. :(( i still have an exams left. and those exam are a bit difficult. anyhow, I'm not worried. i have God. right? i can't want anything else but him. anyway, that's not what I'm going to tell you. it's another matter.

another executive meeting, meaning, another day with him. yes, HIM! happiness are overflowing inside my chest and i felt like it's gonna burst out. I'm planning to that he'd be seated beside me because there's no left chair, but sad to say. my cousin who's head-ever-heals-in-love-with-him spotted another spot. simply put, THEM seated together makes my heart bled. really. I'm not kidding right now. though I'm laughing with some silly jokes, yet i can't focus my eyes. it's so hard to laugh and smile like it's okay. somehow, jokes are covering those feelings.
but know what? even though we're far from each other, he does makes an effort to have a chit-chat with me. and that makes my heart beats fast. i so love his smiles! *sigh*

after eating a lot of pizza, we went to have a good time somewhere around the city, albeit to say, the carnival's lights are out. so, we moved our feet inside the mall. and i really had a good time. with him. promise! we played basket shooting together. and it's fun. not fun because of shooting, but it's fun because i'm with him. and he seems to love my presence too. he treats me like we're on a date? *laughs* he wanted to play gun shooting, and i readily agreed. who wouldn't if you're with your 'someone'. you can actually like that thing because he loves it.

but, how can someone be so cruel? i know he has a recent girlfriend, and i accept the fact that we're just friends. close for that matter. and  i also know that i indulge him once in while. but, must he really said things, like he's compelled to do so, to me? i smiled, haven't i known myself better, i would have had a trophy for gaining an actress award. what to do? he's happy, so i must be happy for him too. but why do i have these feelings like can-you-ditch-her-and-be-mine? *sighs*

this is the price for being a true friend. anyway, i won't ever regret that i met him and be one of my closest friend. and i can't afford to lose the friendship just because i have a thing for him. let the moment be seize. and let fate be upon us. so God be with us. :))

if God is with us, who can be against us, right? :)))