JESUS and ME (JAM): 08/23/11

i'm no bitchy type, just don't provoke me. :))

hmmm, how do i say this ? :D
I'm thankful to my mom and dad who raised me up well, of course through the help of our Almighty God.
just so you know, I'm

Anna May Pacana Campo.

supposed to be, my name has an

Erica

on it, but, unfortunately, it wasn't written in my birth certificate, anyway,i'd have to live with it. i've no choice, aren't i ? *am i making sense here?*

I made THIS blog because it's one of the many requirements i had have to obey back then. but, later on, i realize, what the heck ! i can write here all my anecdotes in life. meaning, so-so. XD. for this, im grateful for the professor who came up with the idea that we must had a BLOGGER, though, i want to strangle his neck for doing so. this kind of stuff is just so expensive and i'd rather buy my collectibles pocketbooks than to post blah-blah here.

anyhow, somewhere in the middle of my anik-anik, THis site cross into my mind, but because im such a lazy-bug, i just throw it, rather, i deleted the thought kinda quickly.

i have this frustration to write, write, write and write. so, *writers block* grrrrr !

til' next time pakner ! hasta la proxima vez !

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

left hanging :/

do you know that i still can't understand myself much? funny isn't it? but, it's kinda true. *sigh* i have lots of personalities that others doesn't really know. first is, they don't care for me at all, they don't even ask if i'm alright or feeling sick or getting well.
i can be a bitch, a pauper, a princess, a psycho, an actress, but most of all, i'm an idiot and a DORK. :))

Since he left, i haven't changes at all, i become more aloof of my feelings on what i feel back then. instead of giving people some thoughts that i'm not happy, i became vibrant then. maybe, they sees me as, i'm happy that he died 'cause i'll be getting attention that i'd seek. truth is, i haven't get what i wanted. oh! i had studied in a school way too expensive for us, though scholar it is, parents are not really troubled. quoted from what my cousin say's way back.

"it's not as expensive as what you've thought, the tuition can be credited"

i am no seeker of love. it's just that, when mama finds me annoying, she'll threw hurt words at me. and those words keep taunting me. and every time 'twould recalled, tears would pooled out from my eyes. i can't stop myself but be bitter. and question myself. "Am i too lowly for a child?"
I can't even answer that.

then, deep inside, i kinda managed to console myself. but really, i'm hurt.

i don't know when is the time that all pains will be healed. it's true to forgive but not forget.

About Me

i'm no bitchy type, just don't provoke me. :))

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

left hanging :/